Falling off the wagon

It has been a difficult week, weight-wise. Not surprisingly, my Weight Watchers weigh-in registered a 4.2 lb gain, although I was surprised that you can put on 4 lbs in one week! I didn't know you could put on weight that fast.

So what happened?

Well, I ate my stress and several times went waaaay over my points limit. Money has been super-tight, Guy’s job search is going nowhere (though he is a trooper and keeps sending out resumes), and I’m really, really tired of being the household breadwinner. I can’t support both of us. He knows this and is doing his best to change the situation, but that doesn’t mean that it has resulted in a change yet. Things at home keep breaking and I don’t have the money to replace them, which sucks. And I desperately don’t want to end up like his parents: perpetually underemployed, terminally ill, uninsured, and with no retirement funds. I’ve articulated this to Guy, and he keeps saying that he doesn’t want that either, but sometimes I wonder if he’s capable of changing that trajectory because until a few years ago, that was definitely his future.

I had an informational interview, which went fairly well but was still stressful. It was at a fattening restaurant, so I just went with the flow and stress ate a bunch of deep-fried fat. I also realized that I’m a few years away from being qualified for my dream job and so will have to change tactics for the time being. I’m not happy about that part, but it does feel good to have some direction and ideas.

I also stopped biking to work since starting boot camp (because there’s no way I can do both.) Boot camp has completely kicked my ass. I’m constantly in pain—like having to use the handrails in the handicapped stall in the bathroom because my thighs hurt like hell kind of pain. I’m constantly sore, tired and hungry. I’m eating more but I think I’m actually burning fewer calories than before. Since my bike commute means about 5 hours a week on my bike, and I’m only in boot camp 3 hours per week, I suspect I’m burning less.

Oof... Here's hoping I can turn it around.